"HELP ME STOP THIS UNHEALTHY OBSESSION WITH MY STEPSON"
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You
fear being judged. I think the first thing I would like
to say is that a trained psychotherapist or counsellor
would not judge your actions but try to help you
understand your feelings and what might be leading you
to do something of which you are ashamed. I do think you
should pluck up courage and contact one of the
counsellors. In fact you could speak or write to more
than one to find the person you would feel able to speak
to.
I think you are at a difficult stage in life, possibly
near menopause and the hormonal changes that take place
at that time. It seems that you would have liked to have
children and maybe you have quite deep regrets that it
is now too late. Maybe your life feels quite empty.
You have been through one marriage break up and the
emotional difficulties that were associated with that
and now you are with a man who has lost interest in your
sexual relationship which can be quite hurtful to your
self esteem. Have you tried to talk to him about it? Is
there something he is preoccupied with at present? Try
to open up an understanding dialogue with him.
I wonder what you both left behind in the UK. Maybe both
you and your husband are missing friends, family and
just the British way of life. Your husband has his son
with him but you have no family here apart from your
husband. Does his son put a pressure on your
relationship in other ways? Having a grownup child
living at home when he would usually be away and living
his own life can be difficult.
From your letter I think maybe you need to talk over
some of these issues and maybe there are other thoughts
and feelings it would be helpful to discuss with someone
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I'm so sorry to hear of your suicidal
thoughts, and would like to address those straight away
by giving you some helplines and web sites at the end of
this email. I know it isn't easy to be feeling like this
in a foreign country and have made sure that I've given
the necessary links/information in English for you.
As for your intense sexual needs, which are focussing on
your stepson at the moment, then I wonder if you'd feel
able to 'talk' about it all online to a relationship
counsellor? I realise that you feel ashamed of your
sexual feelings, but when you are in a steady
relationship with someone and these needs change, then
it is usually sensible to try and find out why these
changes have come about, seemingly in your case, since
you both came to France.
Sometimes the move to a foreign country can bring up all
sorts of hidden feelings, and if couples don't talk
about their emotional and physical/sexual needs then
situations like the one you describe can leave you both
feeling separated, and not knowing how to broach the
subject with each other. It often helps to discuss this
with a trained sexual therapist, and while I know there
probably aren't many of those who are English speaking
in France-apart from maybe big cities-they are available
online. It might help you to write to a therapist as
soon as you can, so that he/she will be able to give you
some perspective on why your sexual life has changed. It
may be that you and your husband have different
expectations of 'retired' life-is he older than you, and
is he by any chance taking medication which might help
explain his loss of interest?
There are many other possibilities to explore, but it
sounds as though you are pretty desperate for sexual
relief, and although you can recognise that your
obsession with your stepson isn't exactly very healthy
for you to have to endure, I do hope that you will take
a step back from what could be an embarrassing and
dangerous situation and seek help a.s.a.p.
www.sextherapyonline.org -this has a link to an article
on sex drive, which looks very appropriate. There are
other sex therapists on www.google.co.uk
1)Befrienders Worldwide
www.befrienders.org - this has useful articles
2)English speaking :- Tel: 0033 1 46 21 46 46 Services
by: Telephone (3-11pm) Website: www.soshelpline.org
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The first thing I would
recommend you to do is to see a counsellor or therapist
as soon as possible to try and get to the root of what
is happening and why you feel so desperate. You are
judging yourself much too harshly. Experienced
counsellors and therapists are used to dealing with all
sorts of difficulties that people experience and won't
judge you or feel disgusted. You write that you have a
very high sex drive but I wonder if your need for sex is
a substitute for some deeper emotional need. You mention
that materially you are comfortable but you do not
mention anything about your relationship with your
husband from an emotional aspect. I wonder why your
partner has lost all interest in sex since being in
France and what that means to you.
Are you feeling rejected or abandoned by this? I also
wonder what sex means to you. Is it a way of getting
comfort or love? I wonder why you think you will be
arrested as your husband's son is not a minor and
therefore you are not committing a crime. There are ways
of dealing with your difficulties so please, do not give
up hope and, as I recommended above, go and see someone
who will help you with all this.
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